For The Last Few Days I've Been Thinking..... I Have Seen A Lot Of Death In Front Of My Eyes. My Cousin, My Grandma, Grandpa, And Many Other Relatives. In Their Last Moments Of Agonizing Pain, I've Pictured Myself In Their Frame And Still Today When I Think Of It, I Feel Terrorized. The Point I'm Making Is, I'm 24 Years Old, Single, No Friends, Still A VIRGIN And With A Very Stressful Life. I Smoke A Lot And Drink A Little... But I Think The Addiction Has Taken It's Toll On Me. I'm Being Held A Shackled Slave By Cigerettes And Perhaps Too Weak To Acquire Mental Strength To Overcome This Habit. Like My Loved Ones Gone, I Don't Want To Lie In A Hospital Bed With Cancer Cells And Scream And Beg For Death. Everyone Has To Die Someday Which Is A Fact And Want To Make It Easy For Me. If Anyone Has A Solution To My Problem Other Than Doctors Or Pills (Which I'm Sick And Tired Of); I Would Be Eternally Greatful.
Please Know That If Anyone Is Abused With This Article, I'm Extremely Sorry. By No Means I Want To **** Off Anypne. Its Just That I Have Many Little Things To Do In Life. Whatever Is Left Of It, i Want To Make It Right. Thank You Everyone.
But I have had friends successfully quit tobacco totally by switching to a portioned dipping tobacco, or preferably snus, and then stepping that down the same way you step down on patches and nicotine gums.
You still have to deal with oral fixation, but at least you can have some help with the chemical addiction.
I've been in the situation myself, I've had friends in the same situation. (Not the exact death, smoking, drinking, little to do etc stuff per se, but the actual part where you wonder what meaning you have in life.)
Try to find someone who cares. Look for the light in the tunnel. People online aren't the ones you'll want to speak to about sensitive things like this, because they don't have the same kinds of feelings as if speaking to a real friend.
On the other hand, if you don't find anyone to talk to, you should try a shrink, or try to get out more. It might be tough to start with, but as long as you can find hope through all the darkness, you'll be way better off than reflecting on the negative.
Now I don't know you, and I probably never will, but I'm speaking of personal experience, and it's worked for more than half of the friends I've got today. Whatever you decide to do, I hope that you'll consider it. Just don't let yourself fall deeper in your thoughts. As soon as you start falling, it's a slim chance to get hold on solid ground again.
Go watch Gurren Lagann. I propose that there is no way you can sit through all 27 episodes of that anime and still be depressed.