Not quite. You've shown yourself more stable than what would be expected from a borderline person.
That's probably because the internet serves as another filter between your mind and your mouth. You've got more time to think about whether what you're about to say is a good decision or not on a webforum than in a face to face conversation.
That being said (@ masa), that's really brave to step up and share something so personal. Respect.
I don't know who i am either. Sometimes i feel like hugging a puppy and other times I feel like drowning one. Sometimes I have violent mood swings, but mostly I keep everything bottled up inside and really only take out aggression on close friends. Sometimes I feel useless, usually I just feel like getting away from everybody. I am a solitary person and I don't let people get to know me, or the real me, sometimes I'm not sure who I am. It's confusing.
One time when i was riding down the road on my bike, I had just eaten and had a pop to go with it, and I had about 50 bucks. I looked ahead of me and thought to myself "How far could I make it?"
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Not quite. You've shown yourself more stable than what would be expected from a borderline person.
That's probably because the internet serves as another filter between your mind and your mouth. You've got more time to think about whether what you're about to say is a good decision or not on a webforum than in a face to face conversation.
That being said (@ masa), that's really brave to step up and share something so personal. Respect.
I agree with this.
On the internet it is impossible to tell what most people are like IRL, because it is so easy to make yourself seem different.
IRL you have to make decisions in a split second, without having enough time for proper thought. On the internet however, you have much more time to plan your words out carefully, and generally seem like a different person.
People can also behave differently on the internet because it's not a face-to-face conversation, and it's alot eaisier to talk to people via text, rather than an in person conversation.
I find it way easier to communicate with people via internet, chatting applications (MSN, skype etc.) than in real-life, because it's almost as if it's not a real person.
It seems this thread has taken a more serious turn. Oh well. I'll follow suit.
There's a long line of anger issues on my dad's side of the family. Unfortunately, I inheirited them as well. I'm not going to lie. I was not a pleasant child around 9-12 years old. After that, I started to get a slight hold on them, but they were still a big problem. After spending a year alone with my dad and grandma (she's got them too) when I was 15, I realized what it's like to be on the recieving end. I won't go into details, but they made me seem saintly. I knew it'd eventually get that bad, so I stopped it. Now I've got a fairly good hold on my anger, but I have been known to snap, but nothing nearly as bad as it used to be.
I have a horrible time making friends. Easily one of the hardest things for me to do. I've gotten a lot better at it, but it's still pretty hard for me. I'm an extrovert, with introverted tendencies. As in, I'm a normal extrovert, but I've got a thin layer of shyness covering it all. Once I get to know you and the shyness is gone, I'm the loudest person you've ever met. But I'm dead silent around new people.
This isn't something that I should probably say in public...on a video game website which is kind of lame, but I am mentally insane. Is that weird? Anyone scared of me now? Finally got this off my chest. I have a Borderline personality...most of you guys on this site would know this. When I first signed up with Cheathappens, I was happy and bubbly. Then I became cold and bold, then it continues to fluctuate. I say with confidence that I do not know who I am, or where I will end up...I feel that now is the perfect time to be honest about everything, and not hide behind a monitor hiding my true feelings about the world.
"If you tell the truth you don't have to remember anything."
Don't take this the wrong way, but I'm pretty sure that's called "being born female".
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