So, I was lurking around for a bit and found something about being overweight and sad so, I thought I would waffle about it for a while.
I spent the majority of my younger years being a fatty-o-fat guy. I didn't really like it very much, girls didn't really notice how lovely I was. I assume that was because they weren't sure which one of my numerous chins was my face which, obviously caused confusion, I accept this. However, because my aesthetics were generally frowned upon by everyone, I came to rely on having a personality as some kind of social portfolio. I eventually lost my weight without really noticing (despite getting quite down on myself and having absolutely no self-confidence), I am now a little underweight somehow which means that society has moved from, finding me visually offensive to, ignoring me completely. Either way, I have kept the personality I developed as chubster which allows me to be witty, sensitive and have the ability to exchange a healthy amount of words with fellow human beings.
This isn't "my success story" or any of that self-aggrandising nonsense, I have merely re-aligned the source of what makes me feel sad. There is no state of personal harmony and if you think there is, you aren't fully awake. Everyone is mentally ill, therapy only attempts to mould you into a form of insanity which is productive.
What was I talking about again?
Yeah, so, society is like a step-father, he will always tell you that you aren't good enough but, **** him he's a ****. By the definition of your existence, you're precisely as you should be. If you wan't to try and change, go for it but, the only justifiable reason to try and find gold at the end of a rainbow is just to simply find out if you can get there, not because you want the gold.
What does that mean? Nothing, probably.
Anyway, the more happy you try to be, the less happy you will become. Acceptance is really the only way you can actually be happy. Oh, and don't read beauty magazines.
Any thoughts?
If you want to say hello to me because I have been away for ages, hello.