The Endgame of my Teenage Years
posted 2/10/2011 4:04:27 PM

I'm turning 20 in under 24 hours at the time of this writing.

My sister is moving out on the 12th to live with her boyfriend in her own unit in the park here.

I am unsure as to whether she will get me any birthday presents before she leaves or if she'll be a cheap ***** and leave mom to buy me something.

Anyway, best wishes to me for the last 24 hours of my second decade of life. Hopefully my third will be much better.

Color Quiz results
posted 9/9/2010 6:08:35 PM

Your Existing Situation

"Searching for a close bond with others which are accepting and kind. Needs a safe, peaceful atmosphere."

Your Stress Sources

"Demands to be noticed by others as an important individual, needs attention and recognition. His current situation is leaving him dissatisfied. He feels he needs to make friends with those who hold the same high standards he does. Wants to stand out as someone at the top of his class and be admired by others. He needs to feel in control which makes it difficult to give of himself to another person. He feels isolated and alone but refuses to appear weak and continues to be emotionally distant from others in order to keep his attitude of superiority. "

Your Restrained Characteristics

Open and emotionally involved in relationships and easily finds satisfaction through sexual activity.

His confidence is low but he is unable to admit that is the reason for his avoidance of conflict. Feels it is a situation out of his control and he is making the best of it.

"Seeking to broaden his horizons and believes his hopes and dreams are realistic. Worries he may not be able to do the things he wants and needs to escape to a peaceful, quiet environment in order to restore his confidence."

"Seeking to broaden his horizons and believes his hopes and dreams are realistic. Worries he may not be able to do the things he wants and needs to escape to a peaceful, quiet environment in order to restore his confidence."

Feels as if too many walls and obstacles are standing in his way and that he is being forced to make compromises. He needs to put his own needs on hold for the time being.

Your Desired Objective

"Longs for tenderness and for a feeling of acceptance from a partner. Appreciates things that are beautiful, pleasing to the eye, and stylish."

Your Actual Problem

Needs to find a stable and peaceful environment which will free him of the worries that are preventing him from achieving the things he wants.

Your Actual Problem #2

"Wants to be valued and respected, seeks a close and peaceful relationship with a shared respect of each other."

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Well, that's... Uncanny in how accurate it is...

Blog of Music Videos and Songs
posted 8/20/2010 10:39:20 PM

So in a moment of weakness I couldn't stay away from the many furry picture montages set to various songs that all link into a theme with the pictures, mostly revolving around love and affection. In particular, two really caught me and I even found myself almost in tears listening to one, of which was a country song called "Broken Road". Oh **** me, I like a damn country song now... I'm doubly depressed compared to usual now...

So yeah, family matters have made me an emotional roller coaster with a TON of loose bolts and hinges ready to snap and send any and all passengers to a grizzly and gruesome dismemberment-based death should they hit the wrong button, revolving mostly around my sister's recent foray into physical violence when I try to hug her, only amplified by her recent increase in alcohol consumption, and my mother's apathetic attitude that screams "I don't give a damn, deal with it."

I don't dare do anything other than bide my time and avoid her as much as possible now, but if I barely get in her way anymore my sister has no qualms with shoving or backhanding me out of her way. This is doubly distressing considering she's a major source of income and involving the local authorities would almost literally ensure mother and myself would face a LOT of cutbacks in terms of nutrition quality and availability, something a diabetic 62 year old woman cannot afford, let alone both her and myself.

Anyway, here are the two songs that really got me. Please comment here, and do me a favor and comment nicely on the comments section of the videos too pwease =3

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Times are still pretty tough...
posted 8/13/2010 9:04:39 PM

Honestly speaking we're doing better than we have been financially lately, and yet there's still literally no real money going around here for luxury items like video games and such...

Most of all I just want Fallout: New Vegas, the rest of the Borderlands DLC (Including the September release of Claptrap's New Robot Revolution), and MAYBE Silent Hill: Homecoming. Most of all though I just want to prioritize The Secret Armory of General Knoxx DLC for Borderlands.

It'd be awesome if anyone could browse my steam wishlist and see if they could spare enough for an item for me. I don't really expect anything, but it'd be nice.

Insofar as family matters go, I'm pretty much the slave to be emotionally and mentally abused as my owners see fit, which has left me with little in the way of normality except for talking with Wuffie and my friends, and also leading to my sleep cycle being royally borked up the tailpipe due to long nights (Till 2AM or later) and sleeping in till nearly 2PM that day, mostly from a desire to completely avoid any interaction with my 'family', as it usually involves a bit of yelling, and me being reminded of "[my] attitude".

Oh well, right? Not like I have too many more years of this crap anyway.

I just busted out the troll-B-Gone
posted 6/14/2010 5:03:00 PM

I have now permanently disabled anonymous questions on my formspring. Don't have an account but still want to ask me something, tough ****, either sign up or ask it here.

Any non-anonymous trolls are royally screwed since people with accounts are permablocked by account, not by IP, or at least I hope so.