Last week.
posted 3/26/2012 8:19:44 AM

So this is my last week of classes until fall.. Wednesday is my last day. On said last day I have to turn in my last research paper. For some reason I decided to do my proposal on overcrowded and expensive prisons. It's been a real joy doing it...

But these last few weeks have been stressful. And I feel stupid.

Sunday or Saturday we were supposed to upload our rough drafts so that our peers could review them. Today we are supposed to turn in our peer-reviews.

Here I am typing away my peer-reviews, when I noticed someone turned one in for my paper. Well I turned my paper in half ass.. I mean not even close to the page or word-count requirement.

As I start reading it I am thinking to myself "WTF is this person talking about?!? Internet Censorship?!".. So I go to the link and download my assignment. Guess who uploaded last weeks assignment?!

So now I am freaking out. At the same time I am trying to tell myself that it doesn't matter what these people think. That I'm fine walking out of this class with hopefully a c+ but would be willing to except a D.

Out of respect for the person who reviewed my mistake I emailed the instructor and asked that they receive full grade and no punishment for my mistake.

Today I feel prone to errors I would not normally make. But it is a nice day overall so I am at the same time pretty happy.

I think I am broken..
posted 3/21/2012 8:18:36 PM

I just cannot stand people anymore.. It is pretty sad. Family included, that is what makes it sad. I have no idea why I feel this way all of a sudden.

Everyone feels like an annoyance to me. Well not the majority of the people on the interwebz though I am more easily annoyed by the trolls and annoyances on the web.

Growing up sometimes I would enjoy large moments of almost solitude ( my puppy was with me). My mother used to call me a troll, but I told her it's because of school and an overexposure to people.. I just couldn't deal with all the morons in the world.

At work I do deal with a lot of people.. So maybe that is it.. All the people at work then I come home and am unable to enjoy my solitude?!?

Part of me has felt like I may be bi-polar and experiencing depression. But what do I really have to be depressed about?!?

There is a song I have been playing over and over. The chorus is "Only once the drugs are done
That I feel like dying" I feel like it is an accurate representation of how I feel.

Though I have never really experienced with drugs. Well cannabis but that was ages ago and I have a good job and it is illegal. But I must say if it was then I would probably treat it like cigars. But it's not so that the end of it.

But I feel like something is gone, and that is why I feel like dying.. But I do not know what is gone?

Honestly I do not know how to put any of this into words. I feel like all I am typing is a bunch of gibberish, like my head is going to explode while trying to think of a way to explain it all.

I do know I miss having some deep conversations. I realized this today when someone asked what the meaning of life was. I used to have this friend that we discuss conspiracy theories. But I do not believe that is what is missing, because I could always try to find a website where they talk about kind of stuff but I feel like what's the point and where is my motivation.

I just realized I sound like a real bore..And a whiner. But I just need to vent, to hopefully help clear my head and figure it all out.

Urgggh
posted 3/14/2012 6:16:32 PM

Video games... More specifically online video games.. To narrow it down even more, online multiplayer video games. Sometimes it is a hate / love relationship with them.

I have left COD.. I made this choice a while back. Yeah I bought, MW3 and I liked it to a certain degree. But the amount of children in it ruined it for me. So... So I ran back to Battlefield, Ooh how I love battlefield.

But what is this?! This 3... It is much more, they changed you.
Well there are many changes I do not much care for, the majority are acceptable.

The last month or so I have been doing pretty awesome in BF3.. Until recently.. My only thought is being sick has some how affected my skill. Or so I hope! Honestly it seems like I keep getting thrown in with some ****ty and dumb people on my team. Then again who knows.. Maybe it is me?

I had to call into work, 2nd day in a row.. Well not really a row but it is.. *week 1 and 3* Thursday and Friday. *week 2 and 4* Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday

That is basically how my schedule always is.. I am on week 1 or 3.. I called in Tuesday and now Thursday. This means I have to go back to the clinic tomorrow, because 1) I am not better 2) I need a doctor's note for tonight's absence (I work 3rd 2am-8am so it's complicated when explaining what days I work).

My head is racing, I wonder what I picked up from work.. Some rare disease?? Lol... But I hate missing work... Because I never know if they will use PTO for the day I missed. But honestly I can not go in and get the patients sick, especially since the majority have just had serious surgery.

Urrrrghhh curse this cough!!! It hurts..

Sheep...
posted 3/12/2012 2:16:34 PM

I could not believe the amount of my friends that are sheep.

They will all re-post that ridiculous Kony comment, but they will not donate to a smaller home funded (Something that helps America).

I'm sorry but I knew it was bs... Yeah it happened, but **** is not as serious as before..

I know this blog is a wee bit old on the subject. But I just seen another mass amount of my friends re-post it.

Sorry I do not support another campaign for oil when I am already paying $4 a gallon. It's a joke how a majority of the countries we have issues with have oil..

On another note I thought I had bronchitis, but according to the clinic doctor I have a cold and am asthmatic. I will in time have my regular doctor confirm.

2 more weeks and I am done with school till next fall!!!!!!!

blah
posted 3/5/2012 4:02:32 PM

Today has been horrible..

but cheers

75 % coke 25% orange soda
+
75-80% vodka and jolly ranchers 25-20% blue raspberry koolade (ghetto style).

= A good drink surprisingly.

I love my 2 subscribers.