Life, death, no sight, running out of breath, pain, pleasure, too much shame, extreme measures, sane, mentally unstable, can't maintain, banging head on table, happiness, sadness, can't take this, feeling death's strong kiss, good life, nothing to lose, throat feeling tight, weight of unpaid dues, nowhere to run to, trying to keep cool, feeling like a fool, wondering what to do, nothing but a tool, drowning self in pool, must hang on, must stay strong, must remain calm, ignoring sweaty palms, can't push, must push, no more strength, can't accept death, can't push, must push, friends and family left, one last step, can't push, must push, just one, last, push....