After learning that his dad would have to go through a major surgery, Sangho felt like the brave mentality he had laboriously built-up was just destroyed again. Sangho kept going under these false accusations, but this news crippled him again.
“Luckily, my dad’s surgery was a success, but even after the surgery, his condition can’t be cured completely. And under this condition, he saw the rumors on the web, and was very angry after seeing people accuse me of match-fixing. As my dad, he understood me better than anyone. He knew I would never do anything like that. Just after the surgery before he recovered, my dad said ‘find me everyone who left these kinds of comments.’ He got angry, and ended up collapsing again.”
Sangho first witnessed the truth in the very real harm of rumors. His father collapsing before even fully recovering from the surgery made Sangho wish he could find each and every one of the people spreading these rumors and change their mind. He can’t forgive the people who hurt him and his father so much.
“Even though the investigation has proven my innocence, no one apologized to me. There is no trace of remorse from the people spreading the rumors. They almost killed a man. They don’t even know how one sentence from them has caused so much harm. But of course, there will be people who will be unrepentant even after seeing my interview. If they can try looking at this from someone else’s shoes, they’ll know how dangerous the things they’ve done were, but unfortunately they’re not doing that.”
Towards a new dream
When the rumors were coming out full speed, Sangho never stepped forward and said “I didn’t.” The main reason was because no one would’ve believed it. He knew that only when the investigations concluded could he convince others of his innocence. But if he had said something, a lot of the rumors would’ve been dispelled. But Sangho doesn’t regret his decision of silence.
“Saying stuff without any evidence – who would’ve believed it? Also, if it was my responsibility to step forth and say something to wash myself of any suspicions, does this mean that every innocent player had to step forth to say something? I had hoped that if I said nothing, the rumors would die down. I didn’t want my teammates to get hurt, so I had to keep silent.”
The investigation lasted from April to May. Sangho lived a difficult life during those two months. When he decided to leave eSports, Sangho returned home without looking back once.
“I didn’t watch TV for two months. The past 5 years were for nothing. If I remained in this place where my dreams died, I wouldn’t be able to breathe. Now? I haven’t thought much, but it’ll be difficult for me to pick up a mouse again.”
After confirming that his dad is recovering again, Sangho began to consider his future. Even though many people are telling him that he probably won’t be able to succeed as a player again, it’s hard for him to completely suppress his passion for eSports.
“The reason I wanted to do this interview was not because I wanted to prove my innocence. I just don’t want another victim like me to appear again. I sincerely ask of the netizens to not forget that just one little rumor from you can make you the same as a criminal, to almost kill a man. I hope no one gets hurt like Id id again.”
Sangho still hasn’t forgotten the pain he suffered, but his heart is no longer as cold as it was. He is currently considering his future – should he return to eSports and do what he can to his ability? Or should we clap for a Sangho who will be soaring towards a new dream? And is it time for the culture of flip-flopping, inconsiderate commenting change?
[Edited by moderator Neo7, 7/21/2010 11:40:34 PM]