Back in school days, as i remember myself i could never go out with upperclassman yet i always enjoyed the experience with other classes kids no matter upper or not.
How you manage to describe your fear i think you have overcome your fear of competition. This fear of confronting new things is natural and the only way to fight it is to go through it. I'd take my hat off to you when i see how honest you're with your self.
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