Insom, you remind me of my cousin. He's in his 20's and has cerebral palsy. He could die anytime. Yet he's more upbeat than most people I know. So are you. And you're right. Where has that childhood wonder? I'll admit. I don't have it any more. I've gotten too caught up in the world and to far into my own self hatred that I've lost that wonder. I want it back. I don't think I'll ever have it back though.
I'm more of a fan of the lightning. So much power, speed, and unpredictability. It enthralls me. I can't get enough of lightning. In my eyes, its beautiful. I like the rain too. I stand outside in it and stare at the sky. Tornadoes aren't so great. I've never actually seen one up close (thank God), and that's odd cause where I live gets more tornadoes than anywhere in the world. Record wind speed too. 305 mph. If you ever want to, go to google images and type in "May 3 F5 tornado." It should pop up.